The biggest reason why AGPTS transition later is because of shame for being aroused wearing womens clothing.

No it is not. There is no 'arousal' in wearing such clothing, any more than there is arousal in adding an extra shot of vodka to a Bloody Mary.

The reason why we attempted to transition later is because of the simple fear and trepidation that threatens us when we portray anything other than locked in masculinity.

Listen, I was fearful and afraid because I used to face a lot of difficulty because the stupid shit-tier oafs thought I was gay and treated me accordingly.

I developed a real aversion to anything relating to what our society calls 'feminine', because I was so mortally terrified of the violence and aggression that would be meted out to my by my social, cultural, intellectual and quite possibly genetic inferiors.

Any shame was caused by the fear and threat that existed because of a poisonous, toxic, vicious and nasty cisgender heterosexual society, not by imagined 'arousal' at doing what to me is essentially a simple, routine habit.

That lousy society is still keeping me repressed because although my transition has not changed my physical appearance one iota (I started way, way too late - because of this lousy oppressive society), I still get the stink-stare from the Isengard Diaspora and the dark mutterings from the sorts of people someone was quite simply born to not have to put up with.

No shame - just fear. Raw, naked, visceral fear. I'm beginning to get beyond that in some respects. I can identify what it is and it has also helped amplify my feelings of righteous injustice and a desire to be dismissive of it all.