I imagine his 'mind' worked along the lines of the first intel 4-bit CPU in comparison to the ARM-5 Quad Core CPU in my Raspberry PI, which is to say, not terribly well.
The swaggart-confidence of the Über-schlong is not something to celebrate; rather it is to be condemned and despised for upholding the extant status quo.
The world never wanted to humble him, the moist bitches were palpitating for the 9 or 10" Schlong, the Appeasy-Acuiescy little maggots, with smaller schlongs of their own, were lionising and sucking up.
So, the Agonizing Arc, was the switch between overweening narcissistic self-regard, and rare moments of lucidity in which he saw himself for what he is.